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A friend had just got her heart broken.
Her prince charming had brutally pushed her out of the picture.
"I'm not going to trust anyone ever again. Never."
There she made a statement - now that sounds familiar!
She was the one glowing with happiness, less than a year ago, announcing that she had finally found the love of her life.
"You should, too," said her then.
How ironic.
The thing that can give you a blaze of glory can also wash you off the sink in no time.
But hey, we've all been there right?

There were those moments when I sank my head - and heart - so low and vowed the same I'm-not-going-to-trust-anyone-again.
But trust had always been an issue for me ever since I was a child and so vow or no vow, it would always been a big wall standing between me and the world.
And of those painfully beautiful stories I've written, I admit I miss them....
Oh and yes, by saying never, we are actually expecting something to happen, although we don't want to admit it, of course.

Yes. My heart had been broken few times before, but it's still beating and improvising.
From what I remember, we can't choose the one we're falling in love with.
We can't say "Ok, I'm ready. Let's go fall in love."
There are too many people, too many stories, too many paths to choose from.
We'd spend time with each of them unsuspectingly, playing around a bit and then suddenly we did it.
We fell for a special someone, without any notice.
If it's mutual then we must have hit the jackpot.
If we're lucky, they would never leave us.
In our luckiest, they would never fall in love with anyone else again.
But the stories are always random.

And since those things that didn't kill us would only make us stronger, we get to choose a story again.
And if it fails (again), we'll find ourselves cursing and making those I'm-not-going-to-trust-anyone-ever-again.
And then history will repeat itself, again and again.
Perpetually, if we let it to be.
Unfortunately the stop button isn't ours.

On the bright side, it can't rain all the time.
But for now, just grab your coat, sweetie... that's all you can do.